Hello Darkness

my ole friend, I come to talk with you again.

We all know the tune. That which resonates and recalls of years past.

The familiarity against the unknown.

Familiar darkness, receding into that comfort zone, the cocoon.

Farthest corner would be that mother’s womb: where it all began.

Rocking motion, complete safety and insulation.

That’s what etched in our earliest memories: maternal voice and the rocking movement.

Even those earlier tastes.

Some prefered eating chilis.

Others thought highly of themselves, too highly. The chosen and the others.

All got that same start, from the dark chamber. Hello Darkness my ole friend.

When vacationing, people choose the beach, to experience the ocean.

To swim, to rock back and forth, to float and feel pampered. Feel enveloped and gloved.

A brand in California put it aptly: Body Glove (for swimwear).

Even people who live in the Mountain like to wear something from California. Reminds them of sandy beach, of eternal youth and innocence.

Yet after sunset, the beach says Hello Darkness.

Water everywhere, in and outside of us.

When too much, it’s called flood. When too fast, it’s called tsunami.

In New Orleans, Bali and Fukushima.

How can we not be flexible.

Maybe Bruce Lee was onto something: Be like water, shaped according to its container.

Flexibility and fluidity.

To survive the times, one needs to tap into this hidden corner, where darkness and water lie. Like it was when we first began and believed. P.S. As of this edit, Sound of Silence was to be preserved as one of the most important American pieces.

Memory of a flood

I jumped on the divan and sat in the middle of it, as far away from the rising water as possible. For a  3 year-old, the sight of water everywhere must be frightening. Water like what was brought in yesterday by the storm. Saigon was hit direct.

Trees toppled and treasure lost.

The French architect planned this Indochine admin city for less than 100,000. Now it caters to 10 million. Tu Xuong, Hoang Van Thu and Ky Hoa, all saw huge oaks fallen.

These oaks were like heroes of a thousand faces, stood firm to witness the changing of the guards.

I listened to the radio back in 1963. General after general making great claims just to be toppled by another.

Boom, bang.

The city was flooded not with  water, but waves of army men and women. Some from Australia, others Korea. What did they have to gain – showing off their Martial Art and weaponry ?

To lose?

Amerasian children later immigrated to the States.

They were accepted by neither society.

This land is our land, from California to the New York Island.

From sea to shiny sea. America America….?

Can’t even take care of your own, however illegitimate.

Don’t blame it on the controversial war.

When the GI had sex, he was just American as Apple Pie.

When Agent Orange was sprayed, the toxicity was traced back to DOW.

Just as American consumers are blaming Made-in-China dry-wall products.

Have you ever heard of RFID? We got the technology to scan, to search, to ID.

Come on!

Be brave. Clean it up and move on.

Just as people are doing all over this city now. Solve the big problem by divvying it up into smaller pieces. Make for good firewood.

The water is now receding. Life is back to normal i.e. noise, pollution and traffic jam. Yet people are happy to pack away their ponchos. Soldiers during war also packed away their ponchos. I saw them retreat (7th fleet). I saw people toss bags of  currency that were no longer of any value. I saw tears in the rain. Rain like yesterday once more. Rain like when I was growing up. Jumping right into the middle of the divan, hoping to stay clear of the rising water.

Memory of a flood, of rain, of tears and of separation.

Of loss and of despair. Water recedes, rain stops fallen, but tears still flow. Otherwise, it wouldn’t be pain. I know, I know, no pain no gain. But pain of your own choosing is different from imposed pain.

Ask the GI’s who fathered those Amerasians. They would rather forget than be reminded. Yet their Amerasian children are growing up, hopefully married and raising a family of their own. Their grandchildren will surely ask? Why do I look like this?

What event brought my parent here? Who and what did grandpa say if anything when met? How would he react? Shameful? Regretful? Forgetful? Memory of a flood. Memory of a war. Biological memory of humanity in the balance.